Seeking advice from those that know
So you can read my post history and learn that my ex ww is a serial cheater. Been divorced for over a year now 50/50 everything to include the kids. There was an incident that occurred about three months after our divorce where my ex ww had photos of a dildoe in her vagina and other provocative pics that ended up on my fighters iPad. Both my 5 yo and 9yo saw the images. I confronted the ex and it turns out she had her iPhone images synced somehow. She said she corrected it.
This past weekend I looked at my sons iPad and checked his internet history and photos as I always do. There were about 30 videos of my ex having sex , giving his in cars , getting gang banged in her home etc. like really nasty stuff. Kids didn’t see it. I confronted her and she said she corrected it.
I am growing concerned as her behavior is escalating. She’s bringing random groups of men in to the home where my kids live half time for gang bangs. All unprotected. In general my concern isn’t her but my children. Who is to say one of these groups won’t show up when my kids are there? Who is to say that won’t leave drugs behind. I’m at a point where I don’t know what to do. I let her family know and they plan on doing an intervention this week. Just seeking advice from this forum as it has been extremely helpful to me in the past.
16 comments posted: Thursday, December 7th, 2023
Seeking advice
So I’ve been seeing a women for about 6 months. We have fun together and are exclusive. Here is my dilemma. She has a gay male formed, who I met, who she is extremely close with. He is married to a male who I have not met. Her relationship with him is what she describes is like a brother. She sleeps over his place some times and he sleeps over hers sometimes as he works in the area where she used to reside. When we were first seeing each other I thought this was odd. Now that we’ve been seeing each other more I’m becoming increasingly bothered by this.
A couple weeks ago she stayed up there a few nights as it was one of the guys birthdays and they had a party. I let her know that I find it troublesome to me that she has sleepovers with grown men. She said that he’s like a brother to her and she has been doing this for years.
What do I do with that. My initial reaction is to just pull away. I told her how I felt about it in a nice way. Am I off in my thinking?
3 comments posted: Tuesday, July 4th, 2023
Seeking advice
So I’ve been seeing this woman for a few months. Kind of casual. She knows a bit about my cheating ex etc. not all the details obviously.
Today when talking with her she said she is going to meet her firmed tomorrow as she wants her to meet a guy she likes. She then said her friend was married and she said she can only say so much. This really bothered me for some reason.
If I had a married friend I would never want to meet their potential affair partner or someone they liked.
Am I overthinking this ?
6 comments posted: Thursday, April 6th, 2023
Struggling
So I’m putting this out there just to put it out there. I moved in to my new home on September 3rd. I got it completely set up too to bottom in like two weeks. Worked my ass off. Had the kids over last weekend for the first time. It was great. Had a good time with them. It’s hard dropping them off again but I think I can adjust.
Right now I am just really struggling. It’s like now that I’m in my own place and have some semblance of peace I don’t know what to do with myself. I stay busy, work out etc but I’m feeling so alone and lonely at times. It’s been bad the last few days to the point where I’m wondering if I am clinically depressed. I also work second shift which makes socializing hard. My therapist felt that I was focused on moving forward and getting everything done that I’m probably now starting the experience the loss of what I thought I had.
I will push forward but I wanted to hear if anyone else experienced what I am? How did you manage and cope.
13 comments posted: Thursday, September 22nd, 2022
Seeking advice
WW we’re divorced June 10th. I’ve remained in the marital home per the divorce agreement and will be closing on my new home on the 2nd. My WW is a covert narc/ serial cheater and for many years liked and cheated. Probably our entire marriage. There have been moments even now where she is down right cruel and spiteful. I keep it civil and as cordial as I can . We have two kids together and joint spilt 50/50 physical custody. She has offered to help me set up my new place a few times and I said no thank you. She also asked if I wanted to go to Disney with her and the kids and I gently said no thank you. I walk on egg shells around her. Do my question is would I be wrong for not letting her step foot in my new house? I really don’t want her toxicity anywhere near me or my life. I also don’t want to set a bad example for our kids. I will go above and beyond to coparent well but I just can’t stomach the idea of her in my new home.
6 comments posted: Tuesday, August 23rd, 2022
Putting it out there
Divorce was finalized June 10. I am still in the marital home sleeping in the finished basement. I was finally able to buy a house in the crazy market.
While I am relieved to have this house the thought of not seeing my kids everyday makes me really sad. It also makes me angry with my WS as well. I have periods of feeling happy looking forward to my new life, and going ahead. Then there are other times where I find myself sad and will sometimes breakdown. I am still working through all of this is therapy and emdr etc. it’s getting better but this next step is proving to be challenging. Just sharing. Any feedback would be appreciated
8 comments posted: Wednesday, August 10th, 2022
What am I doing
So I was recently divorced. Officially June 10. The ex ww was a serial cheater and was already going on dates prior to our divorce from various dating sites. So I went on kind of like a date thing with a colleague. Drinks etc. we talked for hours and seemed to have good conversation. I felt guilty even on the way to the place because I felt guilty don’t know why. So at the end of the night we end up making out etc and it felt amazing. It was the first time I’ve kissed another woman passionately in 15 years. I felt like a school kid. I also felt kind of nervous prior to it etc. is this normal? I am middle aged at 47. We text on and off etc but never act as if anything happened at work. Is this causal dating? I know I’m making my life more complicated at this point but I really enjoyed myself.
7 comments posted: Wednesday, June 29th, 2022
Divorce is done
Well I asked for a divorce on April 23. We med with a mediator in early May. The papers were e filed on the in early June and the divorce was finalized on June 10th. I compromised a lot but to me it was worth it for my peace of mind. I got half the equity, joint 50/50 legal and physical custody and she bought out my equity in the home. No alimony and no child support either way. The agreement states I have up to 6 months to move out of the house in order for me to be able to find suitable housing. I just pay half the bills. I moved in to the finished basement and for now I am sleeping on an air mattress. At 47 years old I never thought I would be sleeping in a basement on an air mattress but I am. And to be honest it feels good. I have a tv and full bath down here. It could be worse.
My 4 year old leaves teddy bears down here everyday for me because he doesn’t want me to be alone. My kids seem to be even more attached to me as they know I will eventually be moving. I reassured them and let them know that they will see me almost as much as they do now and that our time together will be extra special.
For me this was the best decision. If you read through my history I was married to a serial cheater. To be honest I think she’s a covert narc. But at this point I’m not worried about her anymore.
I wanted to really thank this forum for all of the solid advice. I read through so many posts and read so many books. I would like to thank most especially chamomile tea. The advice and wisdom I received from you was excellent. By profession I am a psychotherapist and wonder if you are as well.
For those that are in the thick of it the only advice I can give you is to trust your gut. I’m on the other side now in a way and although it’s a challenge and some times a struggle I look forward to tomorrow. I look forward to life. I look forward to spending time with just my kids and I and not my ww. I look forward to a bright future because I will make it that way. I will be my own light. I really never understood and could fathom how poorly I was treated until I was out of it. Until I broke the trauma bond connection. I hope you can to.
Be well SI. I will continue to read posts on here and maybe chime in once in a while. And remember, it’s ok to not br in a relationship. It’s ok to be single.
8 comments posted: Wednesday, June 15th, 2022
Just told the kids
My soon to be ex ww spoke with our 4 and 9 year old last night about the divorce. It was rough. Answered all of their questions and reassured them that mom and dad lave them. The kids came out to the living room at night and laid on me and cried and said they didn’t want me to leave.
It’s so devastating so see your kids in emotional pain like that. It also makes me angry at the ww. Like really angry. Anyways just wanted to get that off of my chest.
3 comments posted: Thursday, June 9th, 2022
Update
Met with the mediator on Monday. Reviewed and signed off on everything. Paperwork was sent by e file. We don’t even have to appear. I asked for a divorce on April 23 and 2k later it’s basically done. Just needs the stamp of approval from a judge which is guaranteed as it’s a mutually agreed upon document.
It’s odd though. A 10 year marriage and total 15 year relationship done. We still live together and I have 6 months to leave per the agreement. I want to leave as soon as possible and I’m looking for a house now.
When I am around her I am completely triggered and anxious. When she isn’t around I’m completely fine. It’s so odd. The person that I loved, and probably still love, is like a stranger to me now. Without trust there is nothing. Just wanted to update everyone and thank you for all the support.
3 comments posted: Wednesday, June 8th, 2022
Almost done
I think this is the fastest divorce in history. Told ww wanted a divorce April 23. Met with mediator. Split everything 50/50. Joint physical custody of the kids. No alimony or child support either way. We sign the agreement Monday which is then enforceable. Will be electronically filed at the court and that’s a wrap. Will probably take about 2 weeks for a judges signature. It’s amazing how quickly a 10 year marriage and 15 plus year total relationship just ends. I have no love for her anymore. Lost it after d day and the trickle truthing. I see her for the narc monster she is now. I don’t even think she is capable of any real love. Now I’ll just live my best life , heal from my wounds , focus on me, and continue to be the honest , moral , kind man that I have always been.
8 comments posted: Saturday, June 4th, 2022
Dating site?
So if you read my posts you know my story is ugly. I was trying to R with my WW and gave it about 6 months and wasn’t satisfied and couldn’t come to terms with what happened. Asked for A D on April 23. So far we have split our finances , came to many agreements and are working with a mediator.
I learned today that my WW has opened a dating profile on match. account. I was kind of taken a back but it reaffirms to me that I made the right decision.
12 comments posted: Sunday, May 22nd, 2022
Moving forward
Met with mediator a week and a half ago. Both financial affidavits submitted. This far it looks like a 50/50 split in regard to custody.
There are some disagreements about the value of the home and the amount I need to be paid for the equity. A bank appraisal was done about two months ago before the D and it came in low as all drive by bank appraisals do.
I also find my WW has become a super cu@$. She destroyed me emotionally and her family. I am and continue to remain cordial. She is just an emotionless mess of a human. I really believe she is either a narc or has a lot of those tendencies. She questioned why I wanted half the furnishing if I’m getting an equity buy out. I didn’t even ask for half. Much less. I don’t think she gets it. I’m frustrated , angry , and really traumatized. I don’t even know who this person is anymore. I’m InTherapy twice a week to work though my feelings.
Anyways how have other divorcees people deal with this stuff. Like getting what’s fair etc. we are going through mediation to save from the costs of litigation.
1 comment posted: Monday, May 16th, 2022
Mediation
Told the WW a couple weeks ago that I was done and wanted a legal separation or divorce. I transferred half our funds to a seperate account and changed my direct deposit. We are splitting the bills etc. We have an appointment with a mediator on Monday day. Things seemed to be going alright until my WW went in to my phone when I was asleep and read texts I sent to my best friend and brother saying not so nice things about her and to vent. She was furious etc and couldn’t believe I would say those things about her. I explained that she really had no right to read my messages to my friend and brother etc. she was nasty for a week and seems to be settling down. I don’t get her thinking. She lied and cheated for years with multiple people and then gets mad cause I vent to my friends. She also thinks I am cheating on her because I text with a female friend.
It’s all crazy to me. She also asked me why I didn’t tell her I was going to take my wedding ring off. I told her I didn’t feel the need to tell her just like she didn’t tell me she was having affairs etc. is this normal behavior? I am trying to remain calm , peaceful and amicable for the sake of our kids. I get the sense that she doesn’t like the consequences of her actions.
4 comments posted: Thursday, May 5th, 2022
Let the WW know
Last night after going out on a date I let my WW know that things just weren’t working for me anymore and that I wanted a legal seperation or a divorce. It was so hard to do because I really do love her and what I thought we had. If you read through my history you will see why I came to this conclusion
She has been so self absorbed though out this whole process and has been doing the minimum. It just sucks because although I know it’s the best decision for me it still hurts so badly. I love this woman so much but I just don’t feel the same and don’t want the patterns to keep repeating themselves. Any advice on how to get through this
7 comments posted: Sunday, April 24th, 2022
Made the decision to legally seperate or divorce.
So it’s been almost 6 months since dd. I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t want to pursue anymore. I live with my WW along with our two kids and being around her triggers me and makes me feel so uncomfortable. I still love her but she is not safe or good for me. I talked to my IC and she suggested that I tell her I want to seperate/divorce in the MC session. I am considering legal separation to see if time apart and living away from each other could help heal or maybe not go straight to divorce?
Has anyone ever gone this route?
How has your WS responded?
4 comments posted: Wednesday, April 20th, 2022
Divorce steps
For those of you that have divorced or separated from someone who may be angry at the divorce did you take half of the savings prior to filing? All funds are joint and I am worried that as soon as I file, if that’s what I do, ww will become spiteful and drain the accounts
3 comments posted: Monday, March 28th, 2022
